Running On Empty

Saturday mornings, as I have previously said, are for writing. Many days I can write with ease, finding that glorious pace where the words seem to come directly from the fingers, completely bypassing the mind. Other days the trance does not come and the reality of day jobs that must be worked, due bills that must be paid and dinner that must be made interfere.

Today is one the non-trance days.

The words refuse to move from that vast warehouse of memory to the half-formed sentences in my brain. It is like trying to recall a dream; they are vivid and make perfect sense at the time, but in retrospect they are cloudy, riddled with inconsistencies and no longer seem logical.

Stephen King, a highly prolific author, refers to the toolbox in his book On Writing, linking writing to physical work. Writers are craftsmen, putting down words one beside another, creating stories with words and grammar instead of bricks and mortar. Without the supplies, without the bricks and mortar, without the words and grammar, walls and stories are not written.

I show up to write, waiting for something to appear, wanting something to appear. My body showed up to the page, but my mind has yet to arrive.